Hello my BAYOG lovelies~ We’re continuing on with Vol. 2 of our MHAM Playlist!~ I’ll be forgoing our Music Monday posts for this month since there will probably be quite a couple of MHAM Playlist posts. As I said in the [Vol. 1 post], I’m doing a series of posts highlighting relatable and comforting songs for Mental Health Awareness Month. Again, many have experienced some form of mental health struggle or issue. At times you can be overwhelmed with abstract thoughts and feelings that you can’t seem to express. It can also be difficult to open up or rely on others. It can lead you to feeling frustrated, exhausted, and lonely. I believe music helps give form to those difficult to express abstract thoughts and feelings. I find music expresses so many things for me. It’s relatable and comforting. It also holds no judgement. It’s a personal experience and the meaning and what you feel from a song is up to your own interpretation. Which is a great thing because mental health varies from person to person. Admittedly, alot of what I can say about a track can sound repetitive. However, we’re human and what we feel and think is on a wide spectrum. Different songs can have similar feelings and meanings, but still somehow hit a bit differently. Sometimes one song or lyric can stand out or resonates with you more than another.

Again, these songs are coming from my [Airbag Playlist]. If you didn’t know, the Airbag Playlist is comprised of songs that can feel relatable during the times you feel low, can give you comfort, or can give you encouragement. It’s a playlist that’s like an airbag and meant to help cushion you during that times you feel impacted by sad and difficult times. Because honestly, sometimes it just be like that.

You can find the Airbag Playlist on Spotify, here:

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MHAM PLAYLIST| VOLUME 2

For our second MHAM Playlist post, I’ve chosen NIve’s “Tired” and DAY6’s “그렇더라고요 (When You Love Someone)”. Sometimes we just have days where we’re just completely exhausted. Like, truly tired down to your soul. Sometimes we’re overwhelmed, nothing seems to go our way, and just seems out of our control. You’re tired of everything and everyone; Including yourself. It can be to a point where you might even just suddenly breakdown. “Tired” is our lows song that I feel every lyric perfectly describes that tired and frustrated feeling. “그렇더라고요 (When You Love Someone)” is our comforting song of the day. It expresses my thoughts and feelings when I see someone I care about struggle. Honestly, I think every part of the lyrics for both songs are incredibly relatable. Each lyric really resonated with me. They’re exactly the thoughts I have when I’m tired. Meanwhile, DAY6’s lyrics are exactly what I feel and want to say when I’m on the flipside and see my friends and family struggling. I know I said I would bold the parts of the lyrics that I really felt, but for these songs… it’s honestly every single part of the lyrics.

“‘Cause I’m tired… Baby I’m tired of myself…”

NIve | Tired

“I want to be your resting place…”

DAY6 | 그렇더라고요 (When You Love Someone)

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NIve | Tired

There are times I’ve felt tired. I mean tired both mentally and physically. Just tired down to my soul. I feel frustrated and overwhelmed with things. I’m the kind of person who tries to be strong, but I’m human. So of course there are times I reach my limit and eventually just breakdown. I can end up feeling so sick and tired of my situation and how things don’t seem to work out how I’d like them to be. There are times I just feel so numb, and I feel like I’m dead inside. At times, I’m so overwhelmed and I feel like I can’t breathe and that I’m losing my mind. We say things like “feeling the weight of the world”. When it gets bad, it feels like I’m literally being weighed down. Certain words, phrases, and thoughts start to feel like they have literal weight. However, I’m mostly tired of myself. It sucks when you’re stuck in your lows. Because the other thing is, we are our harshest critic. We tend to be the hardest on ourselves. I also feel really sorry towards my friends and family. I hate feeling like I’m bothering them or dragging them down. I’m always like, “Why am I like this again??” Truthfully, I didn’t care for the music at first. However, it’s the lyrics that really got me. It’s incredibly relatable, and really resonated with me. I felt like, “That’s exactly how I feel!”

[Verse 1]
I don’t know what to do with these feelings
Staying strong, all I do is pretending
‘Cause I feel so hopeless
I’m losing my senses
Smiling face, wearing off, I’m so sorry
But I tried, yeah I tried, oh I’ve had enough
Something inside me
Is killing me slowly

[Pre-Chorus]
Who am I now?
I can’t find the answers
When I’m buried in my bed feeling helpless
How do I breathe?
When I’m underwater
Please don’t tell me it’s a part of the growing
I’m sick of this pain
So tell me the answers
Why am I feeling all the weight of this world
Oh I don’t know, know, know, know, know

[Chorus]
Maybe I’m tired
Maybe I’m tired, yeah
Think I hit the bottom of myself
Someone come and mend this broken heart
‘Cause I’m tired
Baby I’m tired of myself
Think I’ve had enough, I’ve reached my limit
I don’t wanna feel this way again, yeah, yeah

[Verse 2]
If I go take a walk, will it help me?
Take a shot with my friends, will it make it stop?
I’m losing my mind now
Losing direction
If I scream all I want in my bedroom
Will my life get much better than right now? Oh
Somebody help me
‘Cause I’m suffocating

[Pre-Chorus]
Who am I now?
I can’t find the answers
When I’m crying in my bed feeling sorry
I don’t know, know, know, know, know

[Chorus]
Maybe I’m tired
Maybe I’m tired, yeah
Think I hit the bottom of myself
Someone come and mend this broken heart
‘Cause I’m tired
Baby I’m tired of myself
Think I’ve had enough, I’ve reached my limit
I don’t wanna feel this way again, yeah, yeah

[Bridge]
Waking up I’m such a mess
How many nights does it take to grow up?
Please don’t ever leave me here
Alone in the dark ’cause I can’t help myself
Oh I (I know, I know, I know)
Oh I (I know, I know, I know)

[Chorus]
Maybe I’m tired
Maybe I’m tired, yeah
Think I hit the bottom of myself
Someone come and mend this broken heart
‘Cause I’m tired
Baby I’m tired of myself
Think I’ve had enough, I’ve reached my limit
I don’t wanna feel this way again

[Outro]
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah

NIve | Tired

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DAY6 | 그렇더라고요 (When You Love Someone)

I know I sound full of myself, but I like to think that I’m a caring person towards those I love. I feel like I’ve always been on the more sensitive and empathetic side. I think it’s because of my empathy that I tend to really worry and care about those I love. Because I’ve been there, and I know how it feels. So when I’m on the other side, it really does hurt my heart to see my loved ones struggle. Especially because sometimes there isn’t much we can really do. Because sometimes it really just be that way. So all I can really do is just be beside them. Sometimes people don’t want or need to hear things from others. Sometimes what they want and need is just silent comfort and support. Still, I can’t help but wish I can do what I can to make them not hurt, and to make them smile again. It’s painful to see them in pain, and you’d rather take that pain for them. I can’t do much, but I promise to do my best to comfort you and be a place you can rest. Because that’s what love is, and that’s what you do for those you love. Sometimes, we’re so deep down in our thoughts and feelings, we can have some tunnel vision and be blinded from seeing the people who care about us. For me this song is a comforting reminder to my friends and myself, that we all have people who love us, care about us, and are always beside us.

It was a hard day wasn’t it
It hurts my heart just looking at you
There’s not much I can do for you except
Being next to you, I’m sorry

You’re so beautiful when you smile
So whenever I see you’ve lost your smile
I want to give it back to you
Whatever it takes

I’d rather cry instead of letting you cry
I want to be hurt rather than letting you be hurt
I don’t want you to
Get hurt ever again

Loving someone
More than I can take
It’s so strange
When you love someone

I want to be helpful even just a little bit
I want to be your resting place
If you think of me on a busy day
I’ll do my best to comfort you

You’re such a tender-hearted person
So whenever I see you hurting silently
I want to make you smile again
Whatever it takes
I’d rather cry instead of letting you cry
I want to be hurt than letting you be hurt
I don’t want you to
Get hurt ever again

Loving someone
More than I can take
It’s so strange
When you love someone

This is a song for you
I’m singing for you
This is a song for you
I’m singing for you
I’ll give you everything

I’d rather cry instead of letting you cry
I want to be hurt than letting you be hurt
I don’t want you to
Get hurt ever again

Loving someone
More than I can take
It’s so strange
When you love someone

DAY6 | 그렇더라고요 (When You Love Someone) | Translation by [Genius]

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Anyway, that’s all for today friends~ I know what it’s like when everything just feels heavy and tiring. I know what it’s like when you’re completely tired in all forms of the word. I just wanted to let you all know that you’re not alone. Sometimes we just need some space and time to get through this wave of exhaustion and negative thoughts and emotions. I know it’s hard to see when you’re stuck in your feels and head, but please remember that there are people beside you who care about you dearly. It’s hard to see them when we’re preoccupied with our own thoughts and feelings, but know that you have people who want to comfort you and be your resting place. Things are tough, but you’ve done such an amazing job of making it through another day. Please stay safe and take care of yourselves. Remember to eat, drink water, and take time and space for your mental health. Have a lovely day friends~ I truly hope your today is easier than your yesterdays.

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BLACK LIVES MATTER

AS A GROUP OF BIPOC, BAYOG strongly stands with Black Lives Matter. We are all too familiar with the racism that we, our friends, and family have faced on a daily basis. Every life is precious. However, as BIPOC, we also recognize that black people are a group of people that face extreme racism and at a higher risk for their safety. We’ve individually done several donations. Of course, donations to support the cause and support change isn’t the only thing needed. Support for the cause and change also requires conversation and understanding. Make sure to have those conversations. Please remember to be an active supporter, be it through donations, sharing information, and/or conversations and speaking up.

If you can, please consider donating. I’ve donated more than once as well. For one of my donations, I donated through the BTS ARMY x BLM project. I recommend that if you’re unsure of where to donate. This is because the donation will be split amongst several different non-profit organizations. Of course, you can also choose a specific organization(s) if you wish as well. You can find that [HERE].

You can also check out the following:

• http://blacklivesmatters.carrd.co
• http://blackliveswillalwaysmatter.carrd.co
• http://saytheirnames.carrd.co

STOP ASIAN HATE

As an Asian-American, racism, xenophobia, and hate crimes against AAPI isn’t new. It’s always been around. Unfortunately, misinformation and the pandemic has caused an insane surge in racism and xenophobia. There has also been an insane rise in hate crimes. More recently, we’re seeing a surge of hate crimes against the Asian elderly. Particularly in the California and New York areas. Some cases even leading to injuries and even death. The sad thing is that many cases do not get alot of attention, or are just looked passed. It breaks my heart and is cause for concern since it affects our community. Since some of the BAYOG Crew (including myself) are Asian-Americans ourselves, I wanted to use our small platform to help in anyway. Hate, racism, and xenophobia is an ugly thing. We’re friends, in the same community, and against the same social injustices. So be kind and let’s fight these things together.

You can also check the following for more information, ways to help, & to donate:

• http://hateisavirus.org
• https://gofundme.com/AAPI
• http://advancingjustice-aajc.org
• [Donate to Different Organizations to Support AAPI Communities]
• https://anti-asianviolenceresources.carrd.co
• https://stopasianhate.carrd.co/

Please report hate crimes at Stop AAPI Hate:

• http://stopaapihate.org

Volunteer
You can see if your community has a volunteer chaperone or neighborhood watch/patrol program.
Some examples:

• Compassion in Oakland @ Oakland, California| http://compassioninoakland.org
• Safe Walks @ NYC, New York| https://safewalx.com/en/welcome
• Guardian Angels| http://guardianangels.org/volunteer
  They’re well known patrol volunteers in NYC, but they do have other branches too.

Volunteer at any other organizations that provide assistance to Asian-Americans; Particularly the elderly.
Some examples:

• Heart of Dinner @ NYC, New York| https://www.heartofdinner.org/
  An organization that supports local businesses and provides meals and care packages to the Asian elderly in NYC.